Thursday, December 22, 2011

Balloon Glow and Tree Lighting

balloon 120211I just love our town.  They have so many family friendly FREE events.  This was the first year we went to the Balloon Glow and Tree Lighting.  Of course, I go to take my first picture and the camera’s batteries die.  So these pics are compliments of my cell phone (not too bad).  Unfortunately, the picture of the tree didn’t turn out.  But, boy, were the balloons awesome.  We got to get up close and personal with them. 

balloon 3 120211We were so close we could feel the heat from the fire and smell the propane burning.  It was awesome for ML and I and for the girls.  We had never been that close to hot air balloons.  And getting to watch them from beginning to end was soooo cool.  Now if only we could for an actual ride.balloon 4 120211balloon 2 120211

Tuesday, December 20, 2011

Christmas Kid Funny

Driving to school the other morning:



  Little Miss A:  "Mom, can you smell my breath this morning?"
          Me:  pausing for a long moment and thinking "no, I don't realy want to"


          Little Miss A:  "Mom, can you smell my breath this morning?"


          Me:  and then it hits me..."Yes, I think we can SEE our breath this morning"

Saturday, December 17, 2011

Gingerbread House Fun

We always end up doing Gingerbread Houses at some point doing the Christmas Season.  We have become “honorary neighbors” to some friends of ours even though we live several miles away.  Our friends were hosting breakfast for their neighbors and we were invited.  It was such a cool thing, I hope to do it for our neighbors one year.  But anyway, my friend Veronica bought the simplest stuff for the kids to make gingerbread houses with.  My girls had so much fun and it was so easy.  I will definitely do it this way next year (just use graham crackers, frosting, and candy).

 

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Friday, December 9, 2011

Fibro Friday: Back Injections

A couple months ago I started physical therapy as part of my pain management.  Another part of the treatment has been having injections in my back of steroids.  I have had 2 injections now and thankfully they are working.  The first one started working pretty fast which I was happy about since I have heard you never know what might happen.  And the second one worked and the doctor said we could stop at 2 which is awesome.

It is pretty interesting when I am done with them and being released.  My legs, especially my right, become very numb and I can’t walk.  It was quite humorous I can imagine watching my mom and I the first time trying to get into my house.  The second time, ML went so that he could be with me and I think he was shocked at how much it affected my legs.  Good thing he is nice and strong and could get me into the house with no problem. 

I am glad to be done with them for now and so thankful that they have worked.  Woo hoo for pain going away!!!!

Monday, December 5, 2011

Thanksgiving Reflections

What a fun month November was.  Looking back, I can’t remember everything that we did, but I do remember a lot of baking.  I can’t tell you how many loaves of my Pumpkin Chocolate Chip Bread (to die for!) I made.   I also found a recipe for Pumpkin Cream Cheese Truffles and tried those…to die for!!!  Those were a bit hit and I made 4-6 batches of those (I can’t remember now).

It has become our tradition to host Thanksgiving and I love it!  ML always helps clean the house which helps and my mom even helped this year.  It makes it so nice that everyone chips in and helps cook so ML and I aren’t stuck cooking everything.  It turned out to be a nice, relaxing even with family.  And of course, we ended the night with our family tradition of watching “Christmas Vacation” with Chevy Chase.  Can’t get any better than that.

One thing I didn’t do this year was the 30 days of Thanksgiving.  But everyday I am so reminded of things to be thankful for.  The Lord has blessed me and my family so much that I am reminded to be thankful for more than just 30 days in November.

Friday, December 2, 2011

Happy December!

Awww, I love the holidays.  There were so many times I thought to blog during November and I just never got to it.  We had a great Thanksgiving and loved the fall season.  And now I am ready for Christmas!  The house is 95% decorated and we are getting scheduled with tons of festive, Christmasy stuff. 

I have some fun events planned to get out and share with others and love on others during this Christmas season so stay tuned…

 

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Friday, November 25, 2011

Happy Thanksgiving!

"Give thanks to the Lord and proclaim his greatness. Let the whole world know what he has done."
Psalm 105:1

Saturday, November 12, 2011

Saturday Random Play

I love listening to my girls play.  They are so creative and hilarious with some of the stuff they come up with.  Their favorite things to play are drive-thru (now that it is cool enough they play through the open window), dentist, beauty pageant, and now that I am in physical therapy, they play physical therapists. 

Some of the things they come up with you now are things they hear from us as parents.  Miss G and Little Miss A were playing Barbie’s and this is what I heard:

G:  Let’s go on a ride (in the Barbie car).

A:  Ok, I want to sit up front.

G:  No, You and your husband sit in the backseat and me and my husband will sit in the front.  That way we can each have some quality time with our husbands.

 

We were also talking in the car the other day and Miss E tells me that she doesn’t want to marry a tall man (because she is going to be short).  And Little Miss A blurts out “I want a husband that will carry my boxes!”

Boy, I just love these 3 girls the Lord has brought me!

Thursday, November 10, 2011

Thanksgiving vs. Christmas

I absolutely love Thanksgiving.  I get upset when so many people and stores forget Thanksgiving and go straight to Christmas.  We have so much to be thankful for and it’s like people just forget all about it.  It’s sad that we need to force ourselves to remember to be thankful for stuff and even then people want to pass over this day/month. (ok, off my soap box.)

Well, with that said, I messed up this month.  We accidentally as a family (including ML) stumbled upon the Christmas Hallmark channel this weekend.  We are now ALL addicted.  Every weekend from now on they are playing Christmas movies.  So I am torn because I am now in the mood for Christmas.  I still want Thanksgiving, but I kinda want to put my tree up.  (some one told me about a thanksgiving tree, maybe I will try that next year.)

I know, I know, I am a hypocrite this year.  I feel so bad.  Why is there not more time between Thanksgiving and Christmas?????  Then we could celebrate Christmas longer and wouldn’t be on a time crunch to put everything up in a few days right after Thanksgiving.  Maybe we should start a Nationwide petition to move Thanksgiving to earlier in November.  Anyone with me???

Monday, November 7, 2011

Shift in Alliances

There has been a shift in alliances in our house.  For years it has been, Miss E and Miss G that have always been together non-stop, ganging up against Little Miss A.  They shared the room, they wore the same outfits, watched the same shows, etc.

Well, now the shift has changed and Miss G and Little Miss A are best of friends.  Since Miss G is in the middle, she can fit in with the older kids and the younger.  So she is so friendly and willing to watch "baby" shows with Little Miss E.  The clothes are moving down children, so now Miss G and Little Miss A have matching outfits.  They now share rooms and Miss E has her own.  They like to play with each other and keep Miss E out of their games. 

It's just so interesting to see how the relationships of sisters work.  And I know there will be another shift again at some point.  I just love that they still play with each other and care for each other (for the most part).  May they grow up staying close to each other. 

Friday, October 28, 2011

Fibro Friday: PT Test Results

Well, I had a few takers on my little experiment.  Thanks for all who tried it out.  Most people that tried it just ended up standing there and nothing happened.  For me, in less than 7 seconds I was over like a ton of bricks.  My physical therapist had to catch me.  And when I showed my family and my oldest, she just kept saying “do it again!”  She thought it was so funny.

So what does it all mean????  It has to do with your sense of balance and your core strength.  Now, I have always known that my equilibrium has been off and my core strength is horrible.  Interestingly, my therapist also asked about ear infections and sinus infections growing up and said that would affect my inner balance also.  And in these last few weeks I have actually been fighting a sinus infection.  So that’s what the test explains.  My therapist also said the more you do it the better you would become at it.  So guess I’ll have to keep practicing. 

Saturday, October 22, 2011

R.I.P. Grandpa DiVito

 

Dominic Charles “Pop” DiVito.P1000539

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Father of Frank, Robert and Margaret (McGuire)

Husband of Polly

 

DiVito, Dominic Charles 88, of Surprise AZ went peacefully to the Lord on Friday, October 21, 2011.  He was born on April 17, 1923 in Boston, MA to Italian Immigrant parents Antonio Vincente DiVito and Margaret Cenci. He was a Veteran of the WWII Army Air Corp and retired as a Civil Service employee from Luke Air Force Base in April of 1985. He was a Third Degree Mason and a member of Chalcedony Lodge #6 F. & A.M. in Holbrook, AZ for over 50 years. Dominic is survived by his wife of 66 years, Polly; his sons Frank (wife Dixie) and Robert (wife Cathey); daughter Margaret McGuire (husband Mike); half brother Anthony DiVito of York Harbor, ME; 11 grandchildren, Beckey Clow, Claire DiVito, Daniel DiVito, Sarah DiVito, Tim DiVito, Kara Gentry, Erin Holland, Conlin McGuire, Shauna Ross, Mike Stone, & Nathan Stone; and 16 great grandchildren. His favorite term of endearment to us all was "Dopey Kiddo" which will forever remain in our hearts. His hobbies were to tinker in his shed and collect old or rare reference books. We kindly appreciate and thank Hospice of the Valley for all their help and support during his last days. In lieu of flowers we ask for donations to be made in Dominic's memory to Hospice of the Valley, 1510 E. Flower St., Phoenix, AZ. 85014.

Saturday, October 15, 2011

PT Test

Yesterday I started PT (physical therapy) for the 2nd time (different doctor, new insurance).  It’s to deal with my major back and leg pain I have going on and my  newly diagnosed bulging disk.  Just by the little stretching my PT therapist did with me, I feel an improvement already.  But what I was so interested in was this little test he gave me. 

As soon as I came home, I started asking everyone to try it to see what their response was to it.  So…I want you to try it.  Here’s what you do -   BEWARE DO THIS NEXT TO SOMEONE OR NEXT TO YOUR BED/COUCH…I AM NOT RESPONSIBLE FOR ANY INJURIES INCURRED WHILE TRYING THIS OUT---YOU ARE FOREWARNED!!!!

1.  Put your feet together and stand straight up

2.  Cross your arms over your shoulders and put your elbows up a little

3.  Get ready to start counting by seconds

4.  Clothes your eyes

 

So what happened?  Anything?  Did you fall over?  How fast did you fall over?  How long did it take for you to fall over?  Or were you able to just stand there with no problem?  I want to know how other people responded.  The only problem is I forgot to ask what all it means LOL.  I think it has to do with my equilibrium, which I have always known was off, but I will ask when I go next week.  But PLEASE let me know your results.  I am just SO curious.

Monday, October 10, 2011

Make-up: Part 1

I am honestly not that vain of a person (minus the gray hair part).  Do I go out of the house without make-up on?  Yes.  Do I pull my hair up and just go run errands?  Yes.  I can be seen in my worst and have been seen in my worst.  But for your average, feeling well day I choose to get all dressed and ready before I leave the house.  I choose this for me!

I was recently at a Mary Kay party where a friend’s friend was talking about her everyday appearance.  How she drops off the kids at school in pj’s with no bra, rarely ever wears make-up, and doesn’t care what outfits she wears when she is out and about (I told her she needed Stacy and Clinton from “What Not To Wear”). 

This conversation really made me think.  As women, I think a lot of us get to the point where we just don’t take care of ourselves.  We just let ourselves go.  Where the same things around the house, never do our hair or make-up.  We are just stuck in “mommy life.”  It was after my 3rd child that I started slowly with my hair.  I was done with the ponytail look, everyday, morning and night.  So I made the step and went for a cute hairstyle.  And I have kept it ever since.  And now with the weight loss, I had decided that enough was enough.  I am taking charge of my own body. 

So mommies it’s time to take charge!  Take charge of your beauty and your life.  It will make you feel better, it can even improve your marriage.  But it’s time.  Do it for yourself.  You deserve it and you owe it to yourselves and to God.

 

1 Corinthians 6:19-20  (NASB)

Or do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit who is in you, whom you have from God, and that you are not your own? For you have been bought with a price: therefore glorify God in your body.”

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

Mommy Confession



Hello, my name is Beckey and I have gray hairs.  See that, plural, I have multiple gray hairs.  And I am depressed….well, not in a real depression sort of way (I know life could be way worse).  Out of everything I have received from genetics, I tend to receive more from my dads side. EXCEPT THIS!!!!  This comes from my moms side, who started graying by early 40.  My dad is the one who finally started getting gray in his 60’s.  So why did I not get this ONE trait from my dad????

I really wonder if it has to do with all of the heavy meds I have been taking over the past 8-9 months.  But this stinks, and it is only on one side of my head (the same side as my mom).  I probably notice it more than anyone, but I know other people have noticed it.  I am 33 and NOT ready for gray!  so it is time to do something about it.  I want to feel better about myself and I want to feel as young as I really am.  This week I will be experimenting so I’ll see if I come up with something I like (don’t worry, professionals are involved).

Monday, September 19, 2011

Miss A. Funnies

Miss A. is definitely the 3rd child.  She comes up with the funniest things and they just blurt out of her mouth.  Here are a few to add to the list:

hanitizer = sanitizer

cockcorn = popcorn

The phone rang the other morning and it was a solicitor so I didn’t answer it.  And Miss A. says, “what if it’s the mental institution?”  Who knows where she got that from.

Friday, September 16, 2011

Fibro Friday: Doctors in My Life



I have been thinking lately of all the doctors in my life and boy are there a lot of them. Most weeks I have at least 1 doctor appointment.  At least 1 or 2 weeks a month I have 3 doctors appointments in that week.  And I have needed to make appointment for my girls, but just haven’t had any time.  Besides my primary and girly-doctor, I see a Pain Specialist, Sleep Specialist, Rheumatologist, Neurologist, and Breast Surgeon.  Oh, and I just got cleared by my Endocrinologist and Dermatologist and I haven’t seen an Allergist in a while. 

Thank the Lord for great insurance and time to go to all these doctors.

Friday, September 9, 2011

Tankini Time

This past weekend I wore a Tankini for the first time, well… since our honeymoon.  I just can’t believe it.  Now this one still has a little skirt on it, but nothing like the "dress" suits I have been wearing for the last however many years.  A friend gave it to me probably 2 years ago and there is has sat in my drawer.  But not anymore.  I am rockin’ it on my body now Smile.

Wednesday, September 7, 2011

September is Here, Where is Fall?

I love Arizona and the people that are here, but this August has been horrible.  I thought we were gone most of July to beat the heat, but it returned in vengeance the past few weeks.  And now September is here, but Fall is no where in sight. 
The beginning of September is usually when I start decorating for Fall.  So technically I would start now, but I just don’t know if I can bring myself to do it. It is just too d%@# HOTTTT!!!!   Fall is my time of year and I like to get a good 3 months of decorations in, but not sure what’s going to happen this year.  Let’s hope and pray for cooler weather soon and that I have the energy to decorate when it’s time. 
So even though I haven’t decorated my house for Fall, my blog will begin the makeover.

Monday, September 5, 2011

Happy Labor Day!



Happy Labor Day!!!  May you take the day and spend it with the ones you love creating great memories and long lasting relationships.

Friday, September 2, 2011

Fibro Friday: In a Nut Shell

So here was my week in a nut shell….way to busy.  I am shocked that I am even standing this Friday night.  I had too many doctors appointments (thank goodness my appointment today was rescheduled by the doctor until next week), sort of an urgent ultrasound done to rule out a blood clot in my right calf (still  have to figure out why it’s swollen), grocery shopping, menu planning, running errands for ML, ML starting a new job, ML being gone 3 nights out of this week and the first week of me doing all drop off and pick up for the girls at school. 

I am so tired and wiped out.  And super thankful that tomorrow is Saturday and that this is a 3 day weekend.  I’m totally not looking forward to my body catching up with me.  But I am hoping there is some help on the horizon for me and my excessive daytime sleepiness.  And just thankful I made it through this week.

Sunday, August 28, 2011

In Heaven

Our girls are in heaven….we have finally succumb to the pressure.  They now have their own cell phones, play cell phones that is.  We had enough old phones to give each of them one to play with and they couldn’t be more thrilled.  There still learning how it works because they still think they should be able to text each other lol.  But for now they are having fun taking pictures and pretend calling people.  Miss E’s phone has some games on it so that is making her feel even more special as the oldest.   Hopefully these will satisfy them for a while since it will be yearrrssss before they get any real ones.

Thursday, August 25, 2011

Kid Funny: With Jesus

Little Miss A is obsessed with calling people on the phone.  All day long she asks me “who can I call?”  Over the summer her favorite has been Grandma/my mom, but now Grandma is working so we have been having to find other people who are home or not in school. 

But the funny thing is that my mom and dad have a nice message on their voicemail that says “…Have a great day in Jesus!”  So if Miss A happens to call and get the voicemail, she tell us that they can’t talk because they are “with Jesus!”  LOL

And she just hasn’t quite figured out the whole leaving a message thing, but it’s so funny listening to her try.  As soon as she hears the beep she will say “call Grandma.”  But it is a command, like she is giving her cell phone a voice command to call someone.

Gotta love my Miss A.

Monday, August 22, 2011

Mystery Solved!

I’ve solved a mystery this early (well, not that early) Monday morning.  For the past 3 years, except this summer, we have gone on a family vaca to Cali with the in-laws.  And every year while we are there I get this annoying itch.  It’s like a rash, though you can’t really see anything.  It attaches itself where ever it wants and can last for months (even when we return to AZ).  One year it was on my butt and arms, another on the front of my legs, and the last was on my neck.  I’ve gone to the doctors and they can’t figure it out (what a shocker). 

But TADA!!!!  I did this morning…we didn’t go to Cali this summer and I didn’t get the rash.  Soooo what that must mean is I am some how allergic to the sea air?  The one year it was the worst we stayed directly across from the beach and the other two years we were an hour outside San Diego.  Now I have gone to Bakersfield with no problem (there’s probably a joke in there somewhere).  So it’s gotta be the salt in the air??? 

Just a guess here, but it’s the only thing that makes sense.  And since I love the beach so much, I guess I will just have to put up with the rash.  Oh, how I wish I was at the beach right now.

 

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June 2010 (pre-weigh loss) :)

Monday, August 15, 2011

Mommy Confession: Matters of the Mouth



So I have a confession/deep thoughts that have been plaguing me for quite some time, but more this last week.  I really believe it is a problem for a lot, if not most women, the need to vent/talk through problems, etc.  But the issue I have is how much to share?  When to share?  When not to share?  I don’t want to gossip.  Gossip is evil and can be so damaging and hurtful and so deceitful.  It can sometimes seem that before you even know it, you are involved in it. 

I have had a few instances this summer (all completely not related) and one a complete brain-fart of a situation.  As in brain-fart, I mean that I had shared a piece of information and it wasn’t until ML and I were in bed that night and I remembered that the friend didn’t want that piece of information shared yet.  It was truly an honest mistake, not done out of harm or malice.  It honestly, completely slipped my mind.  (Luckily it was something that wasn’t earth shattering and my friend accepted my apology and I had done no damage.)

***So what did I learn:  I really need to think before I speak and remember important pieces to conversations. 

Secondly, is the need to vent, clear your head of all the thoughts swarming around.  Who do you vent to?  Who can you trust?  Should we learn to not vent and find a way to just deal with things so that we don’t risk the chance of gossiping?  Do we find someone completely removed from the situation that knows none of the people that can be a source of advice to talk to?  I DON’T KNOW!!!

I do know what the Bible says about gossip: 
“A gossip betrays a confidence; so avoid a man [or woman] who talks too much” (Proverbs 20:19).
 
It just confuses me, not the bible, the being able to speak and get advice without sharing to much and to whom to share to.  I know that I am not sharing information to harm or build myself up, I just need someone to talk to, to help me through the situation. 

***So what have I learned…I’m still confused, but I'll be ok.  I’d like to say that I am just not going to talk to anyone anymore.  But I doubt that will be very realistic.  I have such a heart to be true and honest to everyone and not hurt anyone.  So at this point what do I do??? Continue talking and praying to God asking for clarity and guidance and direction.  Follow God's word to best of my ability on what it teaches about gossip.  And when I mess up, confess it, ask for forgiveness and continue on with becoming more like Jesus.  And also, think before I speak and choose my words carefully. 

I think we all need to be reminded of this from time to time, we are not perfect, I am not perfect.  I am just thankful for God's grace and mercy for when I do mess up.

Friday, August 12, 2011

Flagstaff Fun!

This July we went and spent almost 3 weeks with my in-laws at their cabin in Munds Park.  We have spent about 8 days with them in the past and weren’t sure how 18 days would go.  But they were awesome.  We had tons of fun.  The older girls participated in a drama camp that ended with them doing a performance of Grease.

It was also awesome because it rained almost everyday we were there and reached about 79 degrees each day.  This was great for my Fibro and made it so hard to come home. 

 

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The Girls got to go on their first ride in the forest in Rhino’s.  They absolutely loved it and loved riding in Poppy’s golf cart.  ML even taught Miss E. to drive the golf cart.

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We just had fun playing and relaxing.

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We all kept feeling the windows as we drove down the mountain not looking forward to the heat that was about to slap us in the face.  I think that staying in the cool pines for July should become our family tradition.

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

Kid Funny



This July the two older girls participated in a drama camp and production of Greese (more to come on that later).  Well one of the songs was of course the Hand Jive.  And Little A. has been going around the house since singing the song, loudly.  The only problem is that she changed the words.  So where there should be the word "plow" she inserted our last name "Clow."

"When I was three, I pushed a Clow"

Sunday, August 7, 2011

Heat, Heat, Go Away

Heat, heat, please go away, your killing my energy and wiping me out. 

I love Arizona and really don't think I could stand the weather anywhere else.  And the heat this summer has actually been pretty mild, but with Fibro it really doesn't matter.  And it doesn't matter if you stay inside or out.  I am still wiped out.  Now when I say wiped, know one can really understand what that really means.  I mean I'm talking not being able to get out of bed until 9 or 10 every morning (being full blown asleep until this time).  Just having short bursts of energy to get things done, well basically having no energy to get anything done. 

I just have to thank the Lord that my girls have become so well adjusted to my illness.  They play, entertain, watch  tv, make their own breakfast, etc. all on their own.  I try to look at it positively and think that I am just raising independent daughters.




Monday, June 20, 2011

On the Outs!

I’m not the favorite, boo hoo hoo.  Little Miss A. has made it clear to me the last couple days by telling me that

“Daddy and Grandma are my favorite, but not you!”

And then she also told me that…

“Daddy and Grandma are IN and you are NOT!”

But do you think this has changed her wanting/needing me anymore????  That would be a big fat NO!!!  Good thing Miss A. is such a cute thing and I love her so much.

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

See Ya!

Well, I don’t wanna toot my own horn, but I just had to share some pictures with you.  I have been on a weight loss journey and I am over half way to my goal.  What surprised me the other day was when I saw a picture of myself back at Thanksgiving compared to a picture just taken at Miss A’s b-day party.  I was pretty SHOCKED!!!!!  I mean, like really shocked.  And then I got excited and wanted to share it with the whole world. 
The other thing that has really surprised me is this…not sure if you watch Biggest Loser, but at some point they always have them “put the weight back on”.  Some how they do a challenge where they put all of the weight they have lost back on.  Well, anyways, I have just about hit 40 lbs., (YES I said 40 LBS), and it hit me that I have lost my Miss A in weight.  I’ve lost an entire 4 year old in weight!!!  And to carry her (which is so terribly hard because of the FM anyways) seems so crazy to think that I was carrying that around on my own body and just didn’t seem to care.  But NOT ANYMORE!!!  I am down a 4 year old and depending upon where my goal weight will end (it’s so hard to know since my body has now had 3 children Smile).  I might to almost lose another 4 year old.  I am up for the challenge and won’t stop until I am done. 


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Thursday, June 2, 2011

My Baby is 4!

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Wow, has time flown by.  Felt like just yesterday she was a baby and I was still breastfeeding, lately she has had the attitude of a 2 year old so that hasn’t been helping.  I still have one more year home with my “little love” before the big K.  I hope to make it a meaningful and memorable one since she is the last of the babies. 

This year a pool party was in order (since we now have 3 community pools in our new neighborhood).  It was a fun day, well week of celebrating and she is happy that she is finally 4.  We love you Baby Girl, you bring so much joy and laughter to our lives we couldn’t imagine life without you.
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Saturday, May 7, 2011

Happy Mother's Day



It's Mother's Day weekend and it's been forever since I've blogged.  Not sure where the time has gone...been dealing with fatigue and my husband's illness.   I have some great idea for blog topics but just seem to tired to blog. 

We are having my mom and grandma over today for dinner.  It should be a low-key dinner (as my family calls it).  My parents are buying the main dish and we just fill in with the rest.  ML mopped our floor which was awesome and helped so much and I love that the 2 older girls are old enough to clean the bathroom and help tidy.  Makes cleaning up the house so much easier.  Of course, I could really use a nap right now.  I might actually be able to go squeeze one in before everyone comes. 

I hope everyone has a great weekend and all my mommy friends have a great Mother's Day!  I hope you are pampered and taken care of at least for a little bit. 

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

According to A.

According to my Little Miss A.,

“Jesus tells us to eat candy in bed!”

Thursday, April 14, 2011

Can’t Put My Finger On It

Do you ever get a feeling that something is missing?  Or you should be doing something and your not?  Or you are wanting something, but you can’t figure out what?  Well, I am there.  I just can’t put my finger on it.  I feel like I am forgetting something and  I just don’t know what it is. 

 

But then it’s also like I am bored.  Bored of where life is and wanting a change.  Maybe I am just ready for school to be over and summer to begin.  I don’t know…like I said, I can’t put my finger on it.

Monday, April 11, 2011

Funeral First

As parents we are faced with so many decisions.  Should we do this with our kids or that?  Should we let them experience a certain event or not?  What is the right thing to do? 

We were faced with this when our friend passed away.  Were we going to take the girls to her funeral?  When is the right time to expose them to this?  How much is too much?  So many questions that you are never taught in childbirth classes.  We have always been open and honest with our girls about life and death and we remained so with this situation. 

Through some discussion we decided that it was the right time for the girls to experience a funeral.  (The husband also helped make the decision because he said “now you are bringing the girl, right"?)  We did clarify if it was going to be an open or closed casket which was also a deciding factor (in this case it was closed). 

Thankfully we had a week to prepare the girls and had many opportunities for discussions where they asked tons of great questions.  We walked them through everything that would happen that day and what different things meant.  We also explained what things meant to our family and our relationship with Jesus Christ. 

The girls ended up doing great and really learned a lot going through this process.  They each took in what they could for their age and mental ability.  We were able to share and teach them so much, it’s just sad that it was due to the loss of our friend.  I think that ML and I made the right decision to involve them and that it brought the girls closer to us and a greater understanding of love and life.

Friday, April 8, 2011

Fibro Friday: Court Update

Well, I got some great news…..the judge approved my court case.  That means I WOONNNN!!!!!!!  After an almost 2 year long, tiring battle, I finally have justice on my disability case. 

It was a little weird that I first got the call from social security that I had won and even now that I have received the judgment from the judge still haven’t heard from my lawyer.  I’m afraid that it’s because my case wasn’t 100% successful when you look at my case overall.  But for us, any win was a win.  The ideal was for the judge to find me disabled back to 2001.  Unfortunately, the judge only found me disabled back to 2009.  But like I said, for us a win is a win. 

It means a lot to hear someone of huge authority say that yes, I am disabled and that I cannot work in the working world.  It is now officially on paper that I can’t do it.  I do not have enough energy to function in the work place.  I am in too much pain to be able to work.  Overall, I just can’t do it. 

And the first thing I said was waaaa hooo and Praise the Lord!!!!!  It has been 10 years of suffering with FM, but honestly, I wouldn’t change a thing.  This is who God made me to be and I have accepted it.  The Lord is providing a way of easing our financial stress and it takes a huge load off of our chests.  It has been a long time in the making, but I know that it comes perfectly in the Lord’s timing. 

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Pinky Swear

My poor Miss G. broke her pinky finger at school.  It’s actually a cute story.  Her best friend Ryley and she were playing “horses” at lunch recess.  They went to pinky swear that they would always play with each other, they jumped up and some how her pinky came down and hit her friends elbow. 

 

After it happened, she didn’t even cry.  She went to a friend who is an aide at the school and whispered that she had bent her finger and asked to go to the office for ice.  She told her teacher that her finger hurt, but never a tear.  When she got to the car, she said “mommy, I hurt my finger” and put the finger in front of me.  And of course I said “HOLY COW G., what happened?”  Her poor finger was swollen twice the normal size and completely black and blue.  We were going to just give it a day or so before we took her to the doctor, but ended up googling broken fingers and decided to take her to urgent care. 

 

As soon as the doctor saw it he knew it was broken.  But it couldn’t be a normal break, it involves the growth plate so off to the orthopedist we had to go.  She will have to have it splinted for a total of 4 weeks, but thank the Lord no surgery.  She is being such a trooper and doing great with the splint.  She is only having a little pain here and there.  Unfortunately for her teacher, her handwriting has been affected, but at least that’s temporary.

Monday, April 4, 2011

Onederland

It has finally happened.  It’s been 10 years since I’ve been there.  But I have finally made it back to Onederland.  Yes, I have done it….I am back in the 100’s for my weight!!!!!!   Waaaaa hoooooo and yay for me!!!!!   I am totally ecstatic.  It has been a lot of work and a lot of commitment, but I have been doing it.
So far to date I have lost 28.8 pounds over 10% of my weight loss goal, I am down about a size and a half in my pants, lost over 2 inches (haven’t measured in a while) in my waist.  I AM DOING IT!!!!!!   I have a new resolve from the last time I did WW online.  It has been a lifetime battle and I want it over.  I am 100% committed this time to getting it all off and keeping it off. 

So stay tuned………

Saturday, April 2, 2011

Goodbye Shauna

Spring break in March was a long, hard week.  On Thursday, March 10th we lost a friend to cancer.  She was a young, 30 year old wife and mother to an almost 3 year old and 5 month old little boys. 

Shauna fought a good fight and gave God the praise and glory through the entire thing.  Up until the end she believed that the Lord was going to cure her of this horrible disease.  The end came fast and sudden to everyone.  When she went into the ER on that Tuesday no one thought she wouldn’t be coming home.

ML and I have a great last memory of her that will always be in our hearts.  And her hubby and her boys will forever be in our lives.  We know without a doubt that God put this family in our lives for a reason and we are here to be used as God sees fit.

Shauna we are all so thankful that you are out of pain and suffering.  We ALL know without a doubt that you are up in heaven with our Lord and Savior praising Him with the angels.  All we can say is that we will see you one day.  We still wish you were here on earth, but know that you are truly somewhere even better. 

 

Friday, April 1, 2011

Amazing Day

There was no April Fools going on today in our house.  The most awesome, Praise the Lord moment was that our middle, Miss G. asked Jesus to come into her heart tonight.  We finally found our devotional book (lost with the move and out of habit) that we would read with the girls at dinner and have been reading it the past couple nights.  And it lead to her wanting to ask Jesus into her heart. 

She prayed the prayer inside her head (they have always been so scared to say it aloud) as she repeated after us.  We are so proud of her and so happy that she has taken this step, now we just have our Little A. left.  Thank you Lord that you have given us girls that have a heart for loving you!

Thursday, March 31, 2011

Dear Blog

Wow, so much has happened over these last few weeks and there has been no time to update you.  So many lessons learned, teachable moments with the girls, exciting news, sad news.  Hopefully, I will be able to share soon and get it all down in writing.  Let’s hope I remember it all Smile.

Love,
Fibromommyx3

Friday, March 25, 2011

Fibro Friday: Fibro Funny

For some reason, my girls like to watch me go through my medicine bottles and pull out all of my night time meds.  The other night as I am pulling them all out, the girls are counting them as I go.  When I get to the end, I ask them how many are there.  And the big whapping answer is 10!  And then my Miss E. says “well that’s not that many!”

 

Not that many??? 10 pills just at bedtime?  (No wonder I have to pee so much in the middle of the night Smile.)  And she thinks its “not that many.”  Silly girl, if she only knew this wasn’t normal. 

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

Birthday Girl

Happy Birthday to my now 7 year old.  Oh, how the time has flown.  I remember the day so clearly and you will always hold a special place in mommy’s heart.  We will always have a special connection since we are both middle children, but I love you so much. 

 

Thanks for being our G. Poo.  You are a loving, kind, sweet little girl who is full of energy and has a wild, experimental spirit.

 

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Monday, March 14, 2011

Kid Funny

Little A is the only kid I know that has dreams/nightmares about fighting her sisters.  She will scream and cry that they are taking something of hers.  Or scream out and say “Give me my bear” or something like that.  It doesn’t seem like she gets tortured like that at all during the day. 

That’s one thing I would love to ask God about…how/why do our brains process things the way they do?

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

Sore Nose

Ugghh, my nose has been soooo sore.  I was putting Little A to bed last week and by accident the back of her head slammed into my nose.  It hit me hard on my glasses and shoved them in on one side of my nose.  I was shocked it didn’t start bleeding.  And I was shocked I didn’t wake up with a black eye.  And now days later, I am still in a lot of pain.

 

My nose is throbbing.  It is causing me headaches.  Anytime I blow my nose or adjust my glasses it hurts.  It’s just a nose, who knew that it could hurt so bad.  I must have a deep bruise or something.  I just hope this goes away soon, because I am done with it affecting my life.

 

And yes, I know it could be worse.  I am thankful it is only my nose and nothing else.  I just wanted to share one of the hazards of being a mom Smile.

Monday, March 7, 2011

New Do

If you are in need of an Up-Do for a special occasion, do I have the hair dresser for you.  She is a little young (almost 4), but oh so talented.  Here is a picture of her latest work…call to schedule your next appointment.
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Saturday, March 5, 2011

Health Phobia

What am I gonna do with My Miss E?  She is my oldest, the one who has had probably the most medical issues out of all 3 girls (which really  hasn’t been a lot).  She is the only one who has had to have surgery (a pretty traumatic one at age 2 1/2) and she has all the allergies.  Besides her peanut and tree nut allergies, we just found out she is allergic to most trees, weeds, grasses,etc.  She will be dealing with allergies from Spring to Fall.

And I think all of this has led to her being completely freaked out and scared of any little pain that she experiences.  Any pain she gets sends her into a panic.  She wants to know if me or ML have ever experienced a pain like it.  What happened to us when we had that pain?  She wants to know what could be causing the pain?  Does she need to go to the hospital/doctor?   When will the pain go away? 

She gets short of breath and starts to cry and becomes extremely upset.  We just don’t know why she is like this.  She was young at the age of surgery and probably really doesn’t remember it, but somewhere along the way it has made an impression in her brain.  It has traumatized her forever. 

She is by definition a Hypochondriac.   I googled it and the definition completely matched her even at this young age of 9.  Not sure how we are going to handle this.  I have talked with her Pediatrician and we are going to just monitor it for right now.  But if it starts to get worse, we will need to consult a Psychiatrist.  

So right now we are just going to be gentle with her and love her through it.  This is an anxiety disorder, which does run in our family, so we do need to keep an eye on it.  Let's hope this is just a phase and she can just naturally grow out of it.

Monday, February 28, 2011

Kid Funny

Miss G said that she has a rock she wants to show me that is “awesome!”  It was a flat, shiny, dark green rock.  When she showed it to me she asked me if it was a frog egg because her friend said it was.

 

Oh, the things kids come up with.

Random Thought

Everyone knows that cats sleep all day.  Now I am totally a cat person.  Always have been, always will be.  But why is it that when I go to take a nap they have to come over to me and decide to take a bath on top of me?  Come on, you get to sleep uninterrupted, let me get in my cat nap too.

Thursday, February 24, 2011

Author Am I?

So I have really been thinking…I want to write a book.  The book would be about mental illness in the Christian community (which is totally needed, I’ll probably write a post on this another day).  I have personal experience from myself extending down to several family members.

Here’s my dilemma… I don’t feel like I have the educational or mental background to write it.  This is mainly due to the Fibro Fog.  Yes, I have graduated from college, with a Psychology degree to boot.  But can I recall any of it??? NO!!!  Yes, I  have been a stay-at-home mom for almost 10 years so I haven’t had to use my brain like that.

But with the Fibro Fog, I can’t even remember simple words like table, chair, book, etc.  So what is a girl with Fibro to do???  Well, I guess I better still try.  My only reason for writing the book is to help people.  There is such a huge need for help and understanding for people with mental illness (from depression to bipolar).  This goes for the regular community down to the Christian community to which I am really involved. 

So I guess I will start writing.  Who knows how long it will take.  Years I am guessing, but I’ll see how the Lord leads with it and see what happens.  Wish me luck and good memory recall!

Friday, February 18, 2011

Recommendation: Stock Up Time!

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I was at Target the other day and saw that they had a lot of there paper products on clearance.  And with 2 birthdays coming up in March and May, I figured I better buy their birthday plates and napkins now.  Especially since they were on 30% clearance, how could I pass that up.  I usually wait for stuff to go on more clearance at this store, but there was not a big enough selection to wait for that.

Plates and napkins always seem to be one of those last minute things that always gets forgotten.  And then you are running to whatever store is closest and buying whatever they have.  Target did have several to choose from, which was nice and I choose to not go with the kid themed stuff (though that was on clearance too). 

I even thought ahead to see if I had anything else coming up.  I remembered that I am hosting Bunco next month so I bought supplies for that.  I think I might even go back and buy for my daughters b-day in September.

Oh, and another thing…go and stock up on Valentine’s stuff for next year.  Our Target had tons of stuff.  I already got some at 50% off, but am waiting for the 75% for the actual v-day cards.

Happy Shopping!

Thursday, February 17, 2011

I Need You

“On average, a preschooler requires mom's attention once every 4 minutes or 210 times a day”  (MOPS)

Wow, does this saying ring so true in my life.  Every day, all day long I hear “Mom I need you!”  Little A has such a way of saying this.  I’m surprised I don’t hear it in my sleep.

Now I know this is totally part of a preschooler’s life, but I think she over uses just a tad bit.   Especially since there are times when she is completely capable of walking to me and asking for help versus yelling from her room and making me walk to her. 

Something else that Little A has been doing is telling me that she can’t walk because her leg hurts.  She’ll get up in the morning and ask me to carry her because she can’t walk.  She wants me to carry her to bed because her leg walks.  She wants to be carried to the dinner table because her leg hurts.  Little stinker.  I wonder if she gets it because she hears me talk about my limitations.   Lately I have been telling her I (well, I guess more like threatening) I will have to take her to the doctor if her leg keeps hurting and that pretty much stops it.

I know one day I will long for the day when I would hear “Mom I need you.”  But there are days now when I definitely wish I heard it a lot less.

Monday, February 14, 2011

Me and ML

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        What can I say, I am so in love with him!